Break of Day

I have walked a thousand miles and I will walk a thousand more. Searching. Always searching. All to find the break of day. Possessing a passion for life that leads me on. Constantly seeking whatever should come next. On this path I often find obstructions. They are distractions and demons, wholly determined to bring me down. Time and again I painfully rise, Infinitely better for having lived the previous day. I’ve come to believe that the end point is but a small part for now. my concern becomes rising each day prepared to grow evermore.

I have walked these thousand miles. And I will walk a thousand more, all before the break of day.

Peace, Love, and Happiness…



Tremble & Trust

This is me.

The tremble in my voice.

The shake in my hand.

This is everything.


This is work,

my classes,

my commitments,

my prayers,

my friendships,

my dreams,

All of it.


This is a million thoughts

unable to escape.

This is who I am,

my everything.

And if I could,

I’d write it all for you.

I’d trust you with it all…

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


Hello old Friend

Hello old friend, did you miss me?

It has been so long, I’d forgotten your face.

Here now I find turmoil burning in my soul

So come, let us dance in the moonlight!

we’ll forget former woes and look ahead.

Reveling through the night

meeting as if for the first time

and as the sun rises

we shall see each other in a new light.

Perhaps this is the last we shall meet

though I truly doubt that

I know that we are inseparable

we share a future and a past

our fates are intertwined.

again and again my heart replies,

Hello old friend, oh how I missed you…

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


Somewhere else

Author’s note: this is another addition to my ongoing micro fiction series,

…there it is. A comforting rythm to the jostling of the train. She sat there pretending to sleep, trying to avoid wearisome conversation with her fellow passengers. To her this was another pointless journey, and again she was a foreigner. It really was a joy to travel, though some days she could not help but ache for someplace to call home.

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


moments in Time

I feel the wheels spin violently. I let off the pedal but it’s too late, my little car breaks loose and goes careening towards the ditch. I see the culvert loom in front of me and try to not tense up though I struggle to produce even one clear thought.

Bam!… Boom! Oh God, a fence.

The car slides to a stop, I throw it in park, unclip my seatbelt, and take off running. I make it more than ten feet before my mind catches up. Finally years of training kick in and I’m able to control my adrenaline forcing my body to slow down and not flee.

It’s funny how our perception of time can become skewed. These moments felt like a lifetime. Though in retrospect I realize that it was a mere matter of seconds. Time does not change, but in moments like this we do. So I ask you, what will you do with your beautiful allotment of time?

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


Choices to be made


That is my go-to bible verse for when I’m uncertain about my life. It reminds me that yeah it might have been really rough and it might get worse; but what’s important is that I keep moving forward. God promises that if we love him and seek to imitate his love, then he can do great things through our actions. I can discern all day long, and the act of doing so has its virtues. But God has given me free will and requires that I use it to seek his will. So we all have a choice to make. Do we stand still and wait for life to move us where it will? Or do we take that step in good faith and let God do with it what he will? Recently a friend asked me to pray for her and this is the prayer that leapt to my mind.

Lord God, you have called each one of us to love and to serve you. Be with me now, be my guide as I go about this phase of my life. Please give me the wisdom to know your will, and the courage to do it. Amen

All for the greater glory of God!

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


Tonite I Wept

For those who pay attention to world affairs, it is a constant struggle to not become cynical of our world. I know I do. To fight this off I remind myself of the individual people involved, and what a close-knit global community we are today. But this comes at a cost. I trade cynicism for heartbreak and confusion. Heartbroken by the pain and confused by the hate.

As I write this the French are reeling from a widespread terrorist attack in Paris. The death toll there is over 150 and likely to climb. Today yet another attack in Israel, with a father and son being shot and killed in front of their home. The Syrian Civil War rages on with not two, not three, but FOUR domestic factions. In the chaos of that conflict far too many have been killed. and how many more homeless? Orphaned? Widowed?

In comparison, the troubles we face at home here in the U.S. do not seem as heavy. Politics are a joke. We get offended at the smallest of things. We lash out at our law enforcement officers, forgetting that they are human beings just like us. We can’t seem to agree about the facts surrounding Planned Parenthood. Even closer to home here in Missouri our flagship university is tearing itself apart due to racial tensions, real and imagined, coming from both sides. And everywhere from the West Bank to Mizzou, from D.C. to the (now dimmed) City of Light we reject open dialogue and lack simple compassion for one another. I could allow myself to become angry at our shortcomings as a human race. Instead I cried a little bit (okay, a lot), and prayed fervently.

So where is the light? Where’s the happy ending to the story? Well, that comes down to you and me. Mr Rogers said that when things got really bad to look for the people who are helping others. Tonight I look for them, and I strive to be one myself. My being in Columbia would not calm events there. I alone cannot stop a civil war that has been going on for four years now. Nor can I comfort the mourning in Paris this night. But I can pray. So I pray for my brothers and sisters throughout the world; that we may learn to speak truth, feel compassion, and above all recognize the value of each person around us. For if we forget that we as individuals are intrinsically good, then we may lose faith in humanity all together. I hold on to that. We are all capable of good.

Peace, Love, and Happiness…


We are not afraid...

We are not afraid…

Unknown Beasts + Coping with Reality


Fear has the ability to cripple the best of us. It takes our surroundings and twists them into unknown beasts. And individually we are the only person capable of fighting our beasts. To face a fear is to go against oneself, and the natural desire to survive. I constantly strive to control my fears, to utilize them to better myself.

I am a high ropes course instructor. So I am no stranger to fear, both my own and that of others. There is nothing quite like being thirty-five feet in the air standing on only a quarter inch of steel cable. In those moments you come face to face with your own mortality. I know that sounds dramatic, but that is the reality of what adrenaline and fear can do to you. It’s simply not natural. And despite proven knowledge that the equipment I use and the people I work with are both sufficient to keep me safe it does not persuade the animal in me.

Fear throws out the rational. Therefore logic can not diffuse it. So what are we to do about it? As staff at a challenge course, we do not encourage the elimination nor the ignorance of fear. The reason for this is that we know fear comes from real danger, it is the human animal trying to keep the body alive. Our responsibility as reasonable beings is twofold, first, do not let our mind blow fear out of proportion (it can easily dictate our actions), and secondly, do not let our ego brush off the caution that fear inspires. When we encounter fear our body creates adrenaline, and through practice we can learn to marry the rush of adrenaline with the caution of fear. These together with our will allow us to safely accomplish tasks that we never thought possible.

Peace, Love, and Happiness…



Where I go to meet fear…


a better perspective on how high up I am.